All thanks to zhixin, i've found an area to put my passion to good use, haha! Just applied for a part time job at being an illustrator for children cartoon :) The contact told me that this computer program will be sold via a special needs school to the needy children. You know, i'm actually quite excited to take up this opportunity! I really think it would be a very meaningful accomplishment in my life :) And i really want to help these kids by providing my services.

But my biggest worry is my ability to cope. You know me, i get stressed out REAL easily! I really want to do this yet i fear that i cannot balance my academics with this out :( Then again, once in awhile i would feel the motivation and confidence that i can do this! I mean, what have i not handled? I've been through the rough roads of studying and taking band :) Still can't believe i managed through that! Moreover, this is something i really love doing, drawing! :)

Hence, i have more or less decided to try out this :D Well hopefully, the producer would take me in as his illustrator :D Apparently, he's running a one man show for this project for the kids and i think he needs my support , LOL omg i sound so funny D: But yeah, really, i'm very excited for this! :)

And besides, i do admit that the pay is pretty good and reasonable :)

Wish me luck guys! If i get busier, you'll know why!

BAOW 2011 ended on the 21 April for us and it felt almost like a dream. Really, i thought i would be happy that it has finally ended but nah, i feel so empty :( There was no proper closure on the last day of the camp. I felt so odd that night, cause i really wanted to go home to sleep but at the same time i wanted to see everyone for the last time, so i hung about. Took some inidividual photos with some of the people :)

I would indeed miss the times we had together :) All that trial and actual event camps. I think after this, i would feel kind of empty cause we wouldn't meet as much in school since our schedules don't clash much :( I would love to join back any society events :) Oh well, thank you society for letting me experience such wonders throughout the year :) It has become a part of me and i would never forget the good times we had. Let's continue to keep in contact and really, we need to meet up so i can give yall a HUG!! :D

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Well school's back in action and i absolutely hate it! Tutorials are getting harder, bcomm is just plain disgusting and project due dates are all over the place which are all coming soon! I'm so lazzzyyy, lost my momentum to do any homework or projects :( but yeah i'll have to do it soon!

I've been utterly disappointed with a lot of things lately. I've been thinking and reflecting on a lot of things and i just think life is simply unfair. Wish i could break free. Sian. IGNC

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Dyed my hair again today :) It's mahagony red now :D I love it! I hope it doesn't fade seriously T.T But i know it will, eventually, 1-3 months? I think my hair fades especially fast, emos :( I told myself that i wouldn't dye for another 3-4months cause it's really bad for my hair! But then when it fades, i'll be so upset that i wanna dye again T.T

All right, i've nothing else to say :)