"i have no idea what to put here"

what is wrong with my internet these days! its gone crazy. i cant display my hotmail webpage right, everything's in html codes there, well almost everything. and here i am looking at the partially screwed up blogger posting page, how uber annoying.

i dont think i can pass my languages now. chinese and english papers although over, i cant get over the fact that i actually threw away my last chinese compre and the whole of the english paper! it was horrible, none of the composition topics were nice to write on. horrible. now i just hope i can pass my english comprehension because for some apparent reason, there are rumours about the compositions not being included in the marks for midyears!

oh great! now im panicking for my comprehension cause i know i totally screwed that one up. chinese wasnt exactly that great either. i didnt even have time to complete the last comprehesion and so i have also threw that 20 marks away. how horrible! i looked at the clock halfway through the paper and realised that i only had 20minutes for the whole of the last comprehension. i totally freaked out and was hoping that the teachers had made a mistake in the time calculation. cause no words can imagine how desperate i felt!

now i have to depend on five other subjects to pass my midyears :( and once again, i feel so slacky! ive just finished reading through my geography. i wonder if i can make it in time. i meant if i was able to finish revising for misyears before it starts. i have yet to begin anything on physics, but thats all right. i'll begin immediately after A maths.

gah! i hope i can pass my languages :(

note: went out for lunch at McDonald's after english paper. had double cheese burger. little valerie the odd, who didnt seem to like pickles, was doing a weird pickle 'ritual' after finishing her burger. she positioned the poor little sliced pickle on her lower teeth and started seperating the insides from its skin. well apparently, we just stared at her.

and i thought she said she hated pickles? and after that, she spat the pickle out. all that was left was the separated version of the pickle - the ring of its skin and the insides.

Fantasia's yesterday

Fantasia's over. our last Fantasia. cant believe it just ended like that. i guess we were quite the fruitful batch. we've been through almost every experience. from the old school's band room to the current one. from bus trip to genting to the aeroplane trip to beijing in june. from Fantasia in Victoria Concert Hall to Fantasia at CJC Performing Arts Auditorium. from one night Fantasia to two nights. i guess i wasnt wrong when i decided to join band in secondary one. and i think this would bring back great memories after the O levels.

well! it feels almost odd. it doesnt feel like the end. well yes, there is still the beijing competition thing. but our last concert? it didnt feel quite the last. it felt as if something more was going to happen. i dont know. i dont excatly have a fixed stand to what i feel, whether im happy im going to graduate and shed all this buden, or whether im sad that im stepping down, leaving my juniors standing on their own. oh im sure they can handle it!

its been a wonderful and fast 3 and a half years. soon our last overseas competition follows. and that will really be the last time i'll ever get to sit down in the band room, pick up my instrument and play with the rest. ive been thinking about the day when we all return to singapore from beijing. the time when we step out of the airport. we shall wait til that day and see what happen :)

aww i'll miss everyone :D

well! its midyears time! horrible horrible midyears! ive got to start picking up my textbooks! i heard theres a lot of history homework, urgh so annoying :( all righty! ive got so much chocolates from my aunts and uncles during fantasia. and i mean a lot! it was supposed to be for the section, but everyone left :( must bring to school one day to share. :D

our first night tomorrow!

my internet page seems to have gone insane, but thats all right, i'll blog now anyway! i have an extra friday ticket, does anyone want to go? how can i possibly find someone to go for such a last minute arrangement!

tomorrow's the first night of Fantasia VII! but the chemistry extraction of metals test just had to spoil the whole thing! and i was just fantasising on the possibility of me relaxing as much as i want tonight!

there was originally an e maths mock test tmr afternoon as well, but ms chong changed her mind, after a friendly vote, to allow us to bring home the mock test paper to complete. i know, the atmosphere and pressure would definitely different, but i guess im more worried for my a maths. and i also know that i should worry any ALL my subjects, which i actually am doing right now!

the achordants CDs are here! and the amazing thing is it arrived exactly one month after my order! just a month ago, 8pm on a tuesday night and four weeks (about one month) later at 8pm on a tuesday as well! ahh! the songs are nice!

i didnt study or read anything on chemistry today, instead, i had done that a few days ago. i just hope that i can rememeber what ive read so far.

im worried thinking about the concert. well, we all have to come back to earth, there are exams following in the immediate week. its so horrible! then about 2 weeks after everything's ended, we are going to have our official chinese o levels! oh gosh, im so bad in my languages! i seriously need to read more :( my mum says reading the newspaper would help. i think the basic i could start is indeed the newspapers xD

all righty! i shall continue on my way now. i hope the concert tmr will be a success :D

countdown to doom!

that is correct! let me list the 'dooms'

number 1:
chemistry SPA on monday! i am so worried! i did so badly for my physics one :( and its counted for O levels! im uber depressed. first, my last year's physics SPA didnt exactly go well either, and now this year's one was wrongly done! i am totally dependent on my written physics paper now, which i will most probably do badly since i dont a single thing my teacher says! ahhh! so horrible! :(

number 2:
2.4km run is held in school for us! this is the worst thing that can ever happen! we'll have to run 12 rounds since the track is only 200m long. and naturally, its in all our mentalities that we will not make it! 12 rounds! thats simply insane. theres even a possibilty that our track's not even constructed to be exactly 200m! well how did i come to this conclusion?

last year, i actually got a 16.06mins for 2.4km run on the 400m track at NYJC. and got a 17+, nearing 18minutes for the 2.4km run on the 200m track in school! perhaps its all my mentality, but hows that possible? i didnt train for the run in the NYJC track and actually got a 16minutes! it was miraculous, even i couldnt believe myself. i even distinctly remember myself walking for almost one round on the 400m track under the scorching sun. and even without much walking on the 200m track, i only got a 16+ minutes in a cooling temperature. thats so sad!

cant get my gold anymore. stupid inclined pullups! didnt do 10 >:/ in fact, i got two lesser than last year's result. a horrible 7!

number 3:
the upcoming fantasia! i have a total of 20 tickets, 10 for friday and 10 for saturday. after about 2 to 3 weeks, i have only managed to sell 9 for friday and 7 for saturday.

does anybody want to come for...

FANTASIA VII
tickets are selling at the price of $15,
the dates are on Friday (18/4) and Saturday (19/4),
its being held at CJC Performaning Arts Centre.
its free seating :D

anyway! i dont think we're very well prepared for the concert yet. oh dear! got to return the money of the tickets to the teachers soon :( i hope something miraculous could happen on that day and make us sound angelic or something. perhaps the hall could do us that favour. from the experience of the last performance there :D hmmm.

number 4:
Mid years! thats right, its just a week after the concert! perhaps thats the reason why quite a lot of people cant make it for it :( its only about 3 weeks til exams! i am so NOT prepared! i havent managed to study much for it! so far, ive only read my chemistry, geography and social studies. theres still a bit of physics both my maths and history! waaa! i am doomed :(

number 5:
the beijing internation band competition! we were supposed to go to japan >:/ well that was totally random! i dont think im prepared. i sound like CRAP on my horrible reeds now! im so disappointed. whatever happened to the good reeds in this world? what happened to the once so qualitied vandorean :( they are getting lazy in producing good qualitied reeds xD all my reeds are either too thick or thin :'( im either too blasty or too airy, im so disappointed with myself as well! im so horrible!

sighh! what a life :(